Knocking my head against the wall gives me a headache and I still got nothing.
Category: Mental Health/Personality
Neat as a pin upon the head where a thousand angels dance. Impossible concepts.
All my life, messy was my other middle name. The actual middle name implied the perfection planned for me.
Desk cleaning day in grade school had me in utter devastating humiliation.
In highschool was the locker cleanup day.
My bedroom was a disaster until the cat peed on my clothes. No longer did my mother have to scream at me. I never let my clothes drift to the floor. Hamper or closet or chest of drawers. The clothes solution stuck. But eek, the rest still shames me daily.
I finally get control of one aspect when ‘life’ happens and throws a wrench in schedule and neatness. And who left that tool out here to trip over?
Grief, then TV guy, messed up all my regulated plans for self improvement, just as I got ready to tighten the schedule for house improvement, so now the swinging the pendulum is working to get me on track.
Not for perfection but enjoying passions fully while aiming to stay healthy.
Neat may never happen. ADHD keeps life moving.
Adding yoga and meditation. At least I’ll feel more peaceful about it.
“Nothing is impossible: the word it self says. “I’m possible!”
-Audrey Hepburn
Long time no see. Still processing. Lots of book reviews coming. But for now other things are being processed. And a couple of finished projects.
A few days ago I learned one of my aunts passed. So many emotions, so many things to say. Still finding it hard to put it in my journal or blog.
Sorry I missed you all the last few days.
Anyone else have a hard time getting pen to paper or, even blog. I don’t have the strength or whatever to pull out the popcorn thoughts bouncing around since the 28th of January.
Naming it popcorn makes it sound pleasant. And yes, many memories are joyful. But there are deep, sad, angry, hurtful, and emotional vomit.
But all the words won’t hold still. My cursive writes too slow and messy as words don’t spell check or suggest the right words.
And it seems typing it out on the computer or phone is too personal.
Any suggestions to provide a verbal laxative?
This post is part of Just Jot it January, and the prompt word, “prompt,” is brought to us by Cheryl. Check out her blog here!
Despite the personal challenges of this month that this Just Jot it January has been, if not fun, at least a challenge to write something when I wanted to shut down and crawl into bed. Instead, the prompts of the day made me write a bit and started journaling subjects to handwrite ideas or emotions that needed a place to express.
Thank you, Cheryl, for the prompt. And Linda for the prompts.
Life feels like a labyrinth right now. So much pulling on a person. But finding my way through means there are things to do. Lately, I’ve been prioritizing my physical and mental health.
Pianoing, knitting and the other hobbies are for my mental. Stationary bike and treadmill, on meandering around the house are for the physical.
Prayers come in in my doings, in my journaling when I find myself staring into space.
I don’t know where the entrance or exit are. But taking each turn should keep the scenery changing.
Your prompt for #JusJoJan the 24th and Stream of Consciousness Saturday is: “take another look.” Use it any way you’d like. Enjoy!
When you are my age everything demands you take another look. Did I really put the keys in the fridge? What was the microwave instruction on this “easy” dinner? I pull them out of the trash many times, not just once.
Taking more than one look at different stages, decisions, resentments in our lives occur. ‘What could I have done differently or better?’
But second guessing colors the situation in today’s colors. And if you can’t remember the recipe and it’s right there on the box, and today’s business finds keys next to the butter, can we possibly second guess what happened decades ago?
We did our best then in the light of that day. That’s all we can do with today. We’re busy people with more worries than ever before. Forgive yourself so you can forgive others.
Your prompt for JusJoJan January 23rd, 2026 is “altruism.” Use it any way you’d like. Have fun!
As perfect as altruism sounds, and I do think it is a goal we should strive for caring for others above ourselves, I believe self care is equally important. Even though it seems best to help others into their oxygen masks, we are taught to put our own on first.
Our children and families do better when we take the time to keep ourselves healthy, physically and mentally.
But maybe the trick is to love others enough to start with healthy self-love.
Darswords 
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